Leila Rose Petal

Insomnia VI by MontanaRaven

In the last week or so I seem to have developed a case of insomnia. I go to bed at a normal, reasonable time - anywhere from 9.30 to 11-ish - feeling well and truly tired enough to sleep. I lie there for half an hour or so becoming steadly more wakeful and twitchy and then I get up again. I sit in front of the computer, getting bored, until I’m ready to try again which is usually about midnight - 1am. Then I go to sleep.

I’m awake and generally up again by about 7am, so I’m getting between 6 & 7 hours sleep broken up by at least 2 or 3 toilet trips. It’s not enough. A nanna nap during the day is a necessity just to keep putting one foot in front of the other.

This morning I was all wide awake at 5.30 so I got up and waited for Mark to be out of bed before I went back and slept until 7.30. I feel awful, so I’ll be back into bed again soon. The really annoying thing is that it’s becoming a self-fulfilling prophecy. I go to bed expecting to be unable to sleep and, of course, I am. I’m getting tempted to just stay up until midnight because I know I’m going to be up until then anyway, but that’s not going to solve the problem. Maybe it’s just my mind and body getting in training for the nights I’ll be up with Leila.

With 14 days to go, I’ve decided to get serious about putting together my bag for hospital. I’ve done some shopping and now I need to assemble all the bits and pieces in one place and see if there’s anything missing. Just thinking about it makes me feel nervous.

The Mavis & I … well mostly The Mavis … did quite a bit of work in Leila’s room yesterday and it finally looks like she could come home and use it. She could have before, but now that’s visible to the naked eye. I’m still going to tweak things a bit to get them just how I want them, but it’s pretty much done and that’s a great relief.

Now I’m off to have a nice long nanna nap, so that I’m not cross-eyed with fatigue for the rest of the afternoon.